Hey, it's a beautiful day to be an asshole
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I never write about you
Because I don’t want to give you the power
Or the voice in my head that wants to tell a lover: “Please, don’t make a fool out of me”
In your court I am the Jester. The joke is on me every time you promised you’d spend the time and were too busy drinking instead.
Sneaky Late night phone calls
Sharing stories I’ll never hear
Because you always want to be gone… feeding your addictions and the delusions
Rambles and comments that make me turn my head in shame as you berate me
For new art that siphoned some of the pain out of my body not remembering I’ve told you what it meant
Three times.
Cuz you wouldn’t know a sober conversation if it slapped you into self awareness
“You’ll never amount to anything.” 5 seconds that took up 15 years.
I didn’t pick up sticks right.
Watching my mother pick up after you and hold her rage tight
At 26 I saw myself holding the bourbon just like you
scared I was of my own intensity and the trauma my body holds from never being hugged by a father
who just didn’t bother.
So I set the glass down
Because if I didn’t.
I’d throw it at his head.
Or bury mine.
- DCD 3.31.1962
Gone and forgotten.
Mercury has entered Aries. New Moon Is April 1 in Aries. Everybody wants to fucking fight.
So here's my playlist to angrily headbang to
I’d say focus on moving your body during this time. Controlled rage can be a great thing. Hell, controlled chaos is my favorite mode to be in. As a fire mercury (sag) myself, when Mercury is in ANY fire placement I really start talking my shit.
I’m using this time to tap into my creative bursts and to also affirm Myself. This is something I have been neglecting for too long.
What are your intentions for this New Moon?
I want to focus on being outdoors and affirming myself overall.
If you need ideas, why not try a Guided Forest Bath?
Recs of the Week
Sigil Magic Shorts no one is doing sigil work like Jillisa. She created one for me to try when my cat Rocky disappeared for over a month and he returned to us the day we moved for the last time out of literally nowhere. I highly recommend ALL of her services.
Artist Elizabeth Colomba - Repainting the Story I had the privilege of seeing this exhibit at Bainbridge House in Princeton last weekend. It’s free to walk through and her artwork is truly mesmerizing. I highly recommend learning more about her work.
Hand Painted Candles make me obscenely happy.
Remember: Do no harm, but take no shit.
Updates about readings opening again coming soon! - Cat