Endings.
March Collective Reading
I was shuffling to the rhythm of the song when Ekstasis appeared. Number 2 marking the card didn’t surprise me much. I’ve been seeing 2’s a lot. When the current shoots up your spine as you exhale, music flows, somethings are created out of nothings, this energy makes itself known to us. Staring directly into this card are the demonic eyes of G. Hobyah, striving to suck you into its compelling void. When faced with chaos and evil, Ekstasis is easily forgotten.
Terror is easy. Worship of a moment is not.
I laughed when the blank card appeared. Created as an opportunity to weave your own energy into the deck I’ve avoided the option. My hands are where my mistrust lives. My hands make messes and mistakes, unable to emulate the beauty they see, or touch another human being with ease and confidence. The belief that my fingerprints and voice will never make their mark on this world bites at my fingers like a carnivorous plant.
There is no discomfort like reaching for myself.
The blank card, a stark nothing. The whiteness is sharp in a way that doesn’t promise clarity, but a prison so cruel, exacting, and frightening because I didn’t infuse myself into the experience.
Reflecting up at the blank card is transformation. Transformation often occurs in the dark, in the secret and hidden moments of time. It is not clear immediately. It’s potent. Dangerous. Intimidating. We are irresistibly drawn to its flame again and again, but ignore the call.
Transformation does not allow you to come back.
In my life, and I suspect the lives of the world, we believe transformation is simply a disguise for loss. Transformation has been accused of ending relationships, minds, bodies, careers, loves, security and realities you wanted to hold onto forever. That is not transformation.
That is an ending. And endings are the hardest acceptance of all.
Our world is ending. Let it end. As the twelfth house circles the waters, sacrifice these systems of oppression in your life. A society of evil demons wrote them.
Transformation is what occurs when you decide to wake up to your life and yourself.
We make the rules and systems now. We write the stories. We inhale and exhale.
We become known to ourselves. To Ekstasis. When we live there, even the smallest person can change the course of the future.
You are your future. What will you make? The time to act is now.
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